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Thursday, July 28, 2005

Hey y'all!! watsup??
i had a great day today...
er sch was orite... did my werk...
felt happi afta doin it... otherwise
dun even count tat i will touch my bag...
trying to change myself to a betta person
wahaha... not realli actualli coz...
i love to have fun, so i will do anithin to get it
n i mean anithin! i will get realli crazy n i would
ferget tat im a gerl n tat ppl r watching...
hav to behave myself more... haha
n i wouldn't get crazy alone, ppl might tink im crazy
i will get crazy of coz in the presence of my frens...
esp. Aiman! (u rawks!)
but of coz in sch, im kinda like a good gerl...
wahahaha... coz i see that no matter how bad i behave
in sch... teachers nv seem to... haiz...
kk enough... well i went to watch movies with joey
afta sch... 1st movie i watch was fantastic 4...
the movie is just fantastic! johnny is hot!
fan.4 was at 3 finishes at 4.30...
afta that watched war of the world...
great movie yea... it freak me out!
the movie finishes at 6.45 pm
went straight home afta that...
so now im here... cool yea...
must watch more movies!!!
~peace out

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:25 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

PiC oF tHe DaY(with all 5 members):
Hei there y'all beautiful people out there..!
ifah here... didn't post last few days becoz
i was jus busy... n wen i want to post,
i'm friggin tired! so ferget it...
wahaha i try to post everyday yea?
so that this blog is not silent...
i guess... hehe anyway if no one's reading it,
i dun give a shit yea... i can keep it fer
my own memory...
exams cumin!! SCARY!!! 'n' level 45 days i guess...
kay wutever... wahaha
well im trying very hard(kinda :P) so that i could
actualli go on to sec5... i want to!
haiz... let just see...
hm... lately been listening to The Used
they rawks man!! nice!
u guys shud check em' out..
check out their shit yea...
wat can i say...?
MUSIC JUST ROCK MY WORLD!!
cant live without them... seriously!
ugh! i want to buy my own mp3!!
so i could put my favs... bring it to sch...
i dun wanna share it with my bro!!
damn! coz i want to listen to music 24/7!!
wahaha... music is just great man!!
it will help u through difficult times...
even wen u are studying or stuff...
music realli is ur bestfren!
esp. G.C songs! they are great yea...
well... yesterday i was surfing the net,
i came across a forum... sux man!
W.T.F the ppl there tokin abt??
they said that g.c sux lah n many shit!
they are just a bunch of losers!
c'mon G.C werk hard to earn their fame...
give them some credit! damn!
who they tink they are?! well...
different people got diff. view or likes...
u might not like them... but u dun
hav to fuck abt them saying they sux,
their songs or album is crapp!
just shut the fuck up man!
haiz... i dun wanna tok bt tat crapp
any more... the people are just LOSERS!!
kk... been watching AOL videos...
check it out! damn nice!
well i watch it like 10 times a day...
crazy man! seriously! it's great!
if u guys are interested, there's a link
in my blog... search on any artists...
it's damn cool! kay2...
came across this site on G.C...
friggin shit! it's damn cool!!
wahaha! check it out... all the fan art
is super cool!!
http://www.getdownwithgc.com/
or maybe i discover the site
late or sumthin... wutever!
but watever it is, this web is damn nice...
there are like tons n tons of pic there...
kay2... check it out yea?
hm... i think i'll stop here
fer now coz... i wanna get crazy!!
wahaha... no i wanna study...
education is important yea!?
people out there whu are giving trouble
to ya teacher or parents becoz u just
hate studying... betta think twice yea...
this is SINGAPORE!!
without education... u're nuthin!!
seriously take my advice! u wont regret it...
suffer now then later... werk hard now...
get a damn good job... wen u get all the
money u want, u can hell do anithin with it!!
u can even use it as ur toilet paper! haha
tat advice dont follow yea? wahaha
kay tat's it fer now...
~PeAcE oUt

truly,madly,deeply_'
10:00 AM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

ThE oRiGiNaL dRaWiNg(not done by me):

mY dRaWiNg(done by me):
Hi!! i'm feeling happi todae!! weehee...
wahaha... i'm just crazi...
today's sch was orite...
hm... tmr we hav to wear traditional custume
to sch becoz it's racial harmony day tmr!!
wohoo!! why am i so happi abt??
wahaha... hm... in sch... during P.O.A lesson,
i was bored... suddenly i feel like drawing...
so this is wat i draw... it's kinda retarded though...
hehe... it's suppose to be a drawing of paul thomas...
haha... it looks like some unknown guy... haha
okies... but i think it's not bad at all... hehe
the original one is paul...
den my drawing is retarded paul! wahaha
hm... den afta sch, erm lynn came to my house to
borro frm me a baju kurung to wear tmr...
hehe... she took my pink kebaya...
hm... cant wait to see my classmates with their
custume... kk... i'll stop here...
post again soon...
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
6:08 PM

Wee... hm... nv post last few days coz i was
kinda lazy... hehe... here i am anyway...
er... well last few days was orite i guess...
hm... on sunday, 17/07/05... i went to botanic gardens...
got nuthin to say bout it! tat day too we went to
far east plaza to eat... erm... den we took neoprints...
it was fun! hehe i think we made quite a lot of noise wen
we took those pics... hehe KECOH!! wahaha
den by tat time we are quite tired oredi...
so we went home afta tat...
monday sch was orite... quite boring actualli...
it was raining in the aftanoon so i didn't
went home straight... kinda hav a problem
with a fwen of mine... haiz...
seriously i dunnoe wat to do abt it...
im so confused!! i think abt it all the time!!
even before i sleep! haiz...
shud i just be frank with her or just let it be...
ARGH!!! i hate this ya noe?!
damn... well things has kinda change between us coz
we are no longer tat close i guess... coz she owies hav
stuff to do n stuff... last time we owies go out with
each other n stuff... but now... she got her own stuff...
n i too got my own stuff... becoz of tat i guess we kinda
drift apart frm each other... hm... i realli dunnoe wat to do...
haiz... talk to joey bout it...but den she herself dunnoe
how to help me... now tat fwen of mine is like being kinda
cold towards me... i just want her to be understanding
towards me... n i too hav to be understanding... haiz...
i dun like it wen she's like tat towards me...
i noe her n i noe her well... she owies keep stuff to herself...
i guess... becoz cum to think abt it, she hardly tell me
if she's having a prob... i cant understand her in tat case...
hm... i hope i get to the bottom of this soon...
coz not onli me who is affected... two of my classmates too...
haiz... i want to clear it up as soon as possible...
let's see if i get through this...
-mUzDaLiFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
6:16 AM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Heeya!!! whoah!!! todae was a super duper crazy day!!!!
wahaha!!! well... in the morning went to sch to pass uniform to hamizah....
sembwinds are having a perf. at the police academy...
they performing for mr president farewell party... i guess
hm... didn't get to follow them coz...
i've P.O.A tuition later at 2... so went back home afta tat...
well guess wat??!! ayah told me tat ma tuition teacher wasn't cumin coz...
he's not feeling well!!! haiz... i shud hav followed them!!!
but nvm... well... instead i follow abg to swee lee at bugis...
coz we wanted to change our guitar strings...
n... to actualli ask a person to change our strings fer us,
it will cost $25 service charge!!! W.T.F!! tat exclude the price fer the strings!!!
whoah!! damn expensive!! so we decided not to...
so we browse the shop... i went to da electric bass corner!!
GERAM!!! i wanna buy myself 1!!! Paul thomas frm G.C is my inpiration
to actually start playing bass!! i realli want to play the bass!!!
I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED TO BASS!!
wahaha... den i spotted a special edition guitar...
it has the pic of bob marley... veri nice!!
bob marley edition... super nice man!!
we just brougth the strings n 2 picks fer me n ma bro...
so afta we left... abg has to go to werk...
so he walked frm there to suntec city...
i went home... so lonely in da train...
but it's okay... it gave myself time to think n reflect...
slowly i fall asleep... damn i so sleepy!!
i got home n play the comp.
chat with faiz at msn... he ask weather wanna go to prasana dad's party...
so... i was like why not...?? since i'm free...
so we went out ard 5 sumthin... met faiz at the bus stop...
den met the rest at sunplaza... they're frm sch
went to sembawang shopping centre 1st... coz faiz wanna look fer sumthin...
it was totalli fun!! we joke ard so much!!! i was laughing my arse off man!!
so... afta tat we went to karimun... it was kinda scary i guess...
heard lot's of stories abt that place!!
the swimming pool was empty!! no water!! haha... it was under maintainance...
met prasana... we ate so much!!! den there's this chocolate tat i wanted to eat...
n to ma horror!!!! there's maggots in it!!! i was like FUCK!!
haha... it was friggin funny sia!! haha... we actualli went fer 2nd round...
tha food was damn yummy!! but we couldn't finish it...haha
super bloated man!! faiz was damn hilarious!! wahaha!!
cant laugh man!! we are friggin full!! wahaha
we went home at abt 10+... the trip to the mrt station was so damn funny too!!
we were kinda scared so we just dun think abt it n laugh our way out...
den we joke ard by doin funni actions... wahaha!! damn funni!!
unforgetable!! we walked in a funny way n stuff...
haha faiz walk was the ultimate man!! wahaha...
okok den went home... met abg at the mrt... so i went home with him...
so here i am now... im damn friggin full!!! 1st thing i do went i reach home
is shit!! haha orite... tat's it...
-FrEaK

truly,madly,deeply_'
4:36 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005

hei... here's another post!
well this is abt today... hm... sch was orite...
becoming more serious in ma studies...
shud hav done earlier tough... told ya tat i hav to set
my mind right 1st... i'm getting to it...
haiz... yesterday which is on the
wednesday,13 july 2005, i was freaking tired...!!
went to sch with my eyes swollen!! wahaha
1st time sia!! okok slept in class fer awhile...
everyone was like asking how was it... of coz! it rocks!!!
wahaha... afta sch went out with my ma n my bro...
read the newspaper bout the twins...
they got some rivalry thingy going on...
DUH!! they're both fighting fer the spotlight! N one sad news...
they have left fer canda oredi!! afta i read it, i cried behind the car...
realli!! seriously!!! i was damn sad...! wen will i get to see them again??!!
next year!!?? isn't tat worst!!! the 'o' levels!!! if i make it through ah... hehe
well... i looking forward for them to come back yea...
i'm back at home... i came across this blog i think...
this gerl got all of G.C's autographs!! n even took pics with them!!
damn it!!! i was so jealous!! i cried again!!
how i wish they were s'poreans...!!! as in get a citizenship here! wahaha...
okok... today's math tuition was orite... infact i think i understand betta!
great!! ok that's it fer todae!!
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:58 AM

ThE tWiNs :jOeL N BeNjI
hei... here am i again... hei this post is quite LONG!!
well... this time i'm gonna write frm the very beginning
of my day on 12 july 2005... yeah... hm...
during sch, i wasn't realli concentrating coz
my mind was thinking bout the concert...
coz i heard frm the radio, that people were Q-ing oredi!!
which is at ard 9 sumthin in da morning!!
frm tat on, i was totally distracted!!
owies thinking bout wat wud happen later!!
gawd how i wish i didn't came to sch tat day!!
at tat moment, i was wanting to cabot!!!
or fake that i was sick or sumthin!!!
argh!!! well i knew tat surely people will start to Q
in the morning... well i can help it...
Good Charlotte is damn GOOD!!
N of coz there are more crazy fans out there...
not only me... damn!
Haiz... den finally sch was over so i quikly went home
so i can get ready...
but guess wat!!??
no body's home!! n i got no key!!!
so i hav to wait fer my mum to cum home!!
which is at 3.30!! sch ended at 1.30!!
so me n atiqah waited outside my house like some
beggers with sch uniforms... well we went to the mamak shop...
i was damn pisst off man!!
no one told me that later in the aftanoon, no one will be home!!!
so i brought chocolates to make myself happi coz...
it suppose to the happiest day of my life!!
so i dun want anithin to spoilt it! finally i mum came home...
so i quikly took a bath n atiqah help me straighten my hair...
by the time i went out of my house, it was oredi 5+ i guess
tat's 1 hour behind schedule!! i'm suppose to meet debb n claudya at 4!!
but i've told them tat i will be late... so it's okay...
i got a valid reason anyway...
so i rush to the mrt station to meet up with them...
yeah!! finally we are on our way to da stadium!!
wen we reach there, we join the queue with my bro n faiz...
hehe! i was so happi n damn excited!! i was shouting like a mad freak!
abg brought a G.C shirt for $30... i wanted to buy the badge set...
but it coz $10 fer 4 small badges!! so ex. so decided not to buy it...
yea... we were screen before we can enter the arena...
with the metal detectors! so many ppl are wearing studded belt!!
wahaha... luckily i didn't wear 1!! wahaha
so we quikly grab a spot... n we were at the left side... where billy martin is standing!! wohooo!! i wanted to stand on the right side so i can admire paul playing the bass!! we were like squash!! n these group of foreigners i guess...
were like pushing their way nearer to da stage! it's not fair!!
the think they are bloody white n tat s'porean has to bow down to them!
n give them way nearer to da stage! W.T.F!! we weren't happi at all!!
no body was happi! infact wen this 'short' guy(no offence!) came to him n ask him if he could let him move to the front so he could see betta...
guess wat tat white bastard said! SO?
W.T.F!! ASSHOLE!! so inconsiderate!! fuck him man!
haiz... den one of the gerl looks like a witch... well that's wat debby said...
N i reply... witch or BITCH?! wahaha...
becoz of those few INHUMANS! change my opinion abt ppl like them!
BULLSHIT!! alrite... alrite...
enough abt them! it's G.C's nite!! not their's...
so... we waited for like 1/2 an hour...
finally it started!! yeah... with THE ANTHEM!!
everyone was like crazy man!! jumping n screeming!! n tat's wen things get realli
wild!! ppl are pushing each other!! N there was no sight of FAIZ!!
G.C looks damn good man!! i was screeming my lungs out man!! Paul was crazy man!! i like the way he play the bass!! with his 'head bangging'!! wohoo!!
cool!! Billy was damn hot man!! the twins was also great!!
i hav no personal fav. all of them are my fav.!!!
ah!!! abg was like all the way holding on to me!! i say like!!
ugh!! let me go infront!! wahaha... of coz he's damn tall! he dun hav to move to the front to get a betta view! haiz... okok
Benji started talking crap! but i dun mind!! coz i wanna marry him!!!
wahaha... afta 1 & 1/2 hour of craziness... it soon ended!!
NO!! TIDAK!! they started throwing stuff!! like towels n stuff!!
DAMN!! i got nuts!!! (*cry*) they left n tat's it! no more!!
the light was on again... we waited for the crowd to leave 1st...
we were told frm the guard to leave as they are goin to close the arena
debb go get her bag... n we are off home... reach home at abt 12+...
bath n went to sleep! freakin' tired man!!
N tat's how my day ended!!
-fReAk

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:17 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Wah!!! Good Charlotte!! i'm crazy bout them!!!
their concert was great! although some ppl wasn't
together with me in this... well... wat the heck i enjoyed myself!!
realli man!! music makes me high!!! esp. good charlotte's songs!!!
hm... mebbe good charlotte is not that good in live concert...
as in good performers... but they are good musician... n
their songs are so meaningful...
i love their album chronicles of life death!!!
it's so... it's so... GREAT!!!
Haiz just the tot of it makes me wanna cry...
i've been like waiting fer ages fer their concert...
now... it's only a blury memory of it...
time past so fast!!
now... i'm kinda in a dreamy land...
coz i'm dreaming tat i will marry one of the G.C
member!! wahaha! paul the bass master!!
u're gonna be mine one day!!
wahaha!!!
but now it's serious talking...
i hav to take some time to change my mind back
to reality mode...
if i carry one like this, i dun think i would survive!
this is serious!! wake up u freak!!!
u can dream but nuthin gets done!!
so stop dreaming!!!
EDUCATION IS EVERYTHING!!!
u'll get no where without it!!
okok g2g... goin out with my ma!
post again soon...
-fReAk

truly,madly,deeply_'
6:16 AM

Monday, July 11, 2005

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i'M cOmInG bAcK fRoM tHe DEAD aNd i'LL tAkE yOu HoMe WiTh Me! I'm TaKiNg BaCk ThE LiFe YoU sToLe!!

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:40 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Hei freak!
here i go!!
hm...
today went to sch in da morning to help out sembwinds...
with their rehearsal at de police academy...
haiz... oni manage to see a few cute guys...
wahahaa... cuci mate sikit!
it's was quite boring ah!
becoz i'm wasn't playing
damn!! i miss playing de tuba!!
haiz... hm...
well it was soon over!! yeah!
den...
on da way back to sch,
in da bus,
THE BUS HAD AN ACCIDENT!!!
everyone freak out!!
haha... the bus has hit a van...
but luckily no one was injured...
it was all the van's FUCKING fault!!
serve him right!!
but... actually i dunno wat happen...
haha! i was laughing away with claud wen that happen...
hm...
afta we reach sch,
i rush home becoz i'm having tuition at home...
ah!! i'm late!! the tutor was oredi waiting fer me!
but the tuition went orite!
okok... den here i am!!
-FrEaK

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:50 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

PiC oF mE tOdAy:

Ifah in da house!!
haha! lame...
okok... today as per usual went to sch...
normally i will take mrt to sch...
but now, i hate it!! so far...
so i took the bus instead... hehe
so fast! stop in front of sch sumore!!
yea... hm... sch was owies boring!!
nuthin much happen in sch...
afta sch, went to atiqah house!!
mr Johan gave us a lift!!
so good! hm... well me n debby went to
atiqah house to get sum stuff...
debby borrowed atiqah's bag...
i borrowed her hair straightener
(did i spell it rite?? oh wat the heck!)
yea... n they help me straighten my hair...
hehe... i was so happi!!
hm... went home... rest den...
went out with my mum to sieng sieong
bought alot of stuff!!!
hehe... afta tat went back home n...
here i am!!
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:49 AM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Hello... just came back frm school...
school damn boring sia todae!!
yesterday nv cum late to sch but todae late!!
haha... lol
hm... the rest of the sch frm sec 1-3 went sumwhere ah...
dunno where... den left us sec 4 & 5
yeah!! the sch was quite though...
hm... we are given werksheet & TEST to do!
so boring... but of coz although it's boring,
it's still fer our own good...
well... i sat beside debby in class...
hehe... we cant stop laughing & toking man!!!
but of coz the class is more louder than both of us...
hehe... i fall asleep during the math test!! haha...
but debby woke me up!!! damn... hehe
den went straight home by mrt with debby...
saw xian han in the train... hehe
long time no see!!
hm... tat's it ah... hehe
post again soon...
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
7:09 AM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

HeeYa!! sch ends at 1.30 frm today onwards!! yeah...
hm... well today i woke up late in the morning fer sch...
i tot if i was late, it will spoilt my mood fer the whole dae...
so i quikly bath n got ready fer sch...
luckily my father wasn't werking...
so he has to sent me to sch...
hehe... im not late to sch!!
hhmm... den... guess wat??
i tot todae was monday n brought all the wrong books!!

how dumb can i get??!!
haha... haiz... luckily non of the lesson uses books...
but i hav to carry heavy books which is not used!! DAMN!!
Lol... well... went home with atiqah by bus...
debby got her 'n' level english oral todae so cant go home with her todae...
hm... den wen i got home, i receive a call frm my bro saying tat we won
2 more tix the good charlotte concert!!! yeah!! i was so happi!!
hehe... so 1 tix is mine to give n the other is fer my bro to give...
hm... im realli confused to whu i wanna give the tix to...!!
den i call claud to tell the news... she ask me to give it to bai...
but the last b.e.p concert i went to, debby is the one whu gave me the tix...
it cost $100 leh!! it's only rite tat i give her the tix rite??
haiz... i realli dunno!!
well tat i can decide later at nite ah...
hm... n just found out tat chris, good charlotte drummer is not cumin' fer this tour!!
aw... he's sick... i guess it's quite serious ah... hm... well he will be missed!
just hope tat he get well soon ya...
well, eventually we still can see the other 4 rite?!
hm.. i'm not sure wether simple plan is cumin' too... hopefully ah...
well G.C 'n' simple plan is on tour 2gether rite??
hm... just hope arh... i guess...
can take a look at the pic...

kay i stop here 1st...
post again later..!

-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
7:23 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

Wehee!! i feel much betta i guess...
well i try not to think abt it...
haha... isn't it like running away frm my problems??
well i will get to the root of it soon!
hmm...
my day today was alrite...
nuthing much...
the normal routine went to masjid an-nur afta tat wen to umah nyayi...
ate breakfast den went to sembawang shoping centre to survey car...
hm... still not settle yet! damn it!
haiz... i hope can settle it fast n asap!
well... afta tat, went to compang to buy soya bean!! yummy!!
den kak izan kol n ask weather wanna watch movie...
but i was cancel!! damn it!
was so semangat oredy!!
haha... veri long nv watch movie liao...
well... i guess tat's it den....
post again soon!!!
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:34 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Hey... im back...
Haiz... just got to noe tat they went out without askin me!!!!
Grh!!! i'm so pisst!!
Do you noe tat im damn bored here at home!!!
Haiz... nvm... at least today i studied...
i'm feeling low rite now...
haiz... got sum problems with my fwens...
shud i do sumthing??
or shud i let it be...??
i jus cant wait to get the hell out of secondary sch!!!
Haiz... i just hate myself!!!
grh... i feel like no one's there fer me anymore...
well they cant always be there fer me...
i miss joey n debby...
how i wish things hadn't change!
haiz... im too upset to write anymore...
hope i feel betta tmr...

just having a bad day i guess...
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
10:56 AM

Heya!!
Got nuthin to do so tot i give it a try!!!
well... today so boring!!!
no one's at msn!!!
how cum??!!
only matthew... haiz...
i gona study later
i wanna go on to sec 5 to take ma 'O's!!
but i've been slackin all the way...
how to go on to sec 5??
haiz... well i hav to stop fooling ard n try to focus on ma studies!!!
i've been lokking fer a new skin fer ma blog...
but juz cant seem to find a nice 1 tat i like!!!
i dun quite like the skin im using rite now...
since i cant find a nice skin tat i like...
i think i wanna try doin my own skin!!
haha why not rite??
with my bro's help
yeah!! will do it later wen he gets home frm werk...
i gona study...
be back later to post sumore!!
-iFaH

truly,madly,deeply_'
8:24 AM