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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

hei ya'll. i just wanna make it quik. coz i needa go to sleep soon. today is realli a sucky day ! i have neva experienced a real monday blues. gosh. reallie. trullie. everyone is like practicalli lazy, tired & unfocus. gosh. n we made mr ooi angry. sorry mr ooi. we didnt mean it. just cant help it lar. skewl suck today seriously. when i reached home, i did a lil' comp. den i just tot tat i just lay down a lil' while. but gosh ! i slept off. till my mum came home & started nagging at me. she said tat she wont cook today ! ahh. im hungry. my bro took like the last packet of maggi!! luckily he added "bawang goreng" to his mee. if not, i will pester him to give me some ! i just hate "bawang goreng ! i cant stand the smell ! ekkk! haha. well afta tat, i watched a lil' bit of tv. well not a lil' bit... hehe. a few hrs of tv. desparate housewife, hikmah. i watched both at the same time ! haha. poor thing lar the ana gerl. such an evil stepmother ! but the guy. whu? er.. adrian. hotty. well. im attaracted to his sincerity, determination & nv give up spirit. yea. hm.... i got nuthin else to say. happi holidays you kiddies out there. nitex !

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:53 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

hookin' it up ! watsup? this gonna be a long post so sit-back & relax. yea. let's get to it. im gonna reallie maintain this blog. i lurve it. its where i speak my mind, where i get heard, where i learn more abt myself & lots more... so much more. uh-huh. im gonna do my reflextions abt de week. 1stly, skewl ! its has been hectic ! of coz its onli a year course ! cant srew up ! not even once. it will reallie haunt you ! esp. now, tat i mite get debar frm taking the exams. still unsure if i could take de exams. results not out yet. keepin' my fingers cross ! frens in skewl been reallie good. betta den i expected it to be. shout out to Anne, had each other's back since the very beginning. irna, got to knoe her abit later. she's one heck of a person ! got lot's lots of peminat! but she has more quality in her den tat ok. hehe. yea. nicholas aka ignatious, he's irritating ! good fren of mine definately! haha. my classmates... you guys r great orite. i know for a fact tat everyone will be soon separated. so i want to take this oppotunity to wish all de best in your future, be focus! have confidence, most important, love yourself no matter wat ok? u guys are great pple. glad tat u guys came into my life. yea. we shall enjoy ourselves at thailand this coming september. looking forward to it !!! missed 1 day of swimming session. coz of the weather. gettin so fat ald !!! my tummy is growing so much ! more den myself growing as a person. haha. will get to the losing weight thingy slowly. no rush. afterall, im still young. ouh ya. yesterday, i watched the ring on tv. it was scary lar. ok lar. not bad. it has caused me difficulty sleepy ! so i continued to watch this korean love movie. it was so touching !! i cried man! haha. at least its less embarassing coz my family were all asleep. in the middle of the movie, i kinda fell asleep for a lil' while when a tap on my hand woke me up!! scary sia! my bro's sleeping. infact he's snoring!! well, i try not to think abt it as sumthin bad. yea. who knows tat watever tat thing is. is just telling me to continue watching the movie. hehe. guess wat?! i slept with my parents tat nite! whaha. had fun with my homies from sembwinds! missed em so much !! ahh. greatness ! so any great memories tat i will never forget. yea. i've also been true lots of bad times in love. well, let's not call it love coz its too early to tell. lets call it having a companion when you need a shoulder to lean/cry on, having the support when u need a boost, to have fun, having each other's back, feeling protected when you walk at night, making you feel like ur somebody BIG, treating you as if ur his everything. lot's more factors abt having a companion. those are just a few of em' coz the rest is sumthin' tat i cant describe in words. sumthin' tat u can onli feel. sumthin tat hit me is a saying frm 1 of my role model. which is Pink. "i would wait around for them and wait for love instead of loving myself. i realised that once i started loving myself, i found myself in better relationships." dun u guys agree? hehe. i mean, its ok to like someone. it comes naturalli. well, for example, woo... i just kind like this guy in my neighborhood. he's hot! long black hair, black shirt, nerdy spects, jeans and he reads!! cool huh? i know coz when i was at borders with bestpren, Joey. while walking thru the selves, there he was reading not paying any attention to his surroundings. not even when me & Joey are making a hell of a noise there. laughing n all. haha! i was laughing at Joey's comment abt him reading for GOODNESS sake. lmao. dunch you think its funny?! aha ! well yest. when i drop off frm the bus, there he was again walking home. now tat's wat i call faith! wee !! i watched him frm behind. HOTNESS! haha. he turned! he saw me! hehe! tat made me smiled all the way home. ahh. le sigh. ouh ya! ouh ya! i still remember when i was still in secondary skewl, there will be a few times when i will see him goin to skewl also. this one day, he was infront of me walking [he walks quite fast ok?!] the train had arrived!! i was still at the elevator cuming up. i tried catching it, but the train when off!! shitness. was ald late! den when i looked in the train, there he was grinnin' at me for missin' the train!! so bad. lol. u guys mite think tat im some kind of a freak remembering these kind of things. haha. well, tat's just me bein a gerl tat i am. we notice things well. REMEMBER em' well ! hehe. woo... look ! i've been typing since ard 1130. its a supeeer long post. but come to think of it, most of my post are relatively long... yea. hehe. wonder if pple actualli read the whole thing. aniwaes, im doin this for myself. not for anyone else. yea. almost 1 now. gotta sleep ald coz tmr is a skewl day!! dada pple. hope u guys enjoy reading my blog. have a great week !
awi [frm spore idol] - HOTNESS!

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:57 PM

postie. postie. haiz. im rotting at home now. i feel like quiting ite band. practices are so far. so early in da morning. i so friggin' lazy lar. actualli i left the hse ald. leaving for band. went down the lift, forgetten the scores. went up again. den i was like.... forget it ! im not going ald. gonna be late aniwaes. just so lazy ! so far i dun think tat i even got frens there. exclude Faiz & Dynn coz i ald noe them. Faiz also said tat he's quiting soon... yadda. yadda. Dynn, i know him frm my bro. but we dun hang unless my bro is there. so?? can say i hav no one.... i wanna quit and find another cca at my skewl ! gosh. but i went thru all the trouble not having an intsrument n all. and now, i hav my own Tuba. i'm gonna blew it. gosh. am i tat free?? everone seems to have their own thing to do. whereas im here rotting more & more. is it a mistake for not goin for band? i just find the practices so boring ald. band is like so yesterday ald lar for me. just not as interested as last time. mebbe its the whole package lar. Sembwinds is way different frm ite band ! tat'll answer it. rite now, im just like begging pple to go to the gig with me. i'm abt to give up. actualli, i just did. cant support you fren... i wish i could. all the best in your perf. okie? im sure u'll do good ! sorry yea? u'll hav ur darling there. why the hell u need me for?? haha. like as if he's reading it. i think i'll msg him later. tat's all fer now. dada !

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:00 AM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

yey! he just called me! woot! now i can die. eyy! actualli not ! it's just a phone call. it don't mean a thang ! aniwaes it was for also a lil' while. to be exact, for 15 ~~mins~~ SECONDS. sad ain't?? i noe. but just that LONG 15 seconds can really make my day. Le Sigh. shall not continue on that animore. guess wat?! my anutie did visit me today ! wat a bummer ! she'll be staying for abt a week or so... making sure my life is a livin' HELL! punching me in the stomach all de tyme. till i bleed. lol ! [tat time of the month, guys, dont ever make a gerl pist !] or u can kiss ur arse goodbye ! orite. today was fun for me. just a few moment hearing my mum nagging. yadda. yadda. yadda. haha. u noe i dun mean tat mama. i still lurve ya! muaks! heex. if onli she reads my blog. but then again, wat if she realli reads it?! i'll be grounded for life i guess. yea. preety much. aniwaes ! sumthin' embarassing happen just now to me! ah ! but it was hilarious lar. aha ! well, here goes nuthin'.... me & irna alighted the bus at clementi mrt bus-stop when i was so friggin' happy to see homie jocelyn. i got so excited ! i called her. said "Hi !" she laughs [do i look funny to you?!] she then got up her bus. thinking tat i am also taking the bus, looking for me in the bus. [was quite funny tho !] hahas ! but not as funny as wat im gonna anounce to you guys. me here, walking not looking at where i was walking. constantly looking at Joce in the bus [searching for me in de bus!] gosh ! haha. I BANG INTO A POLE ! for tat accident, amazingly Joce now noes tat im NOT in the bus! haha ! Irna's laughing her socks off ! till she nearly died. [she said so herself.] haha. wonder if anione saw it. so embarassing ! but fun as hell !! hahas ! orite. tat's the story. ouh ya. my bestie Joey has now officially start blogging ! hopefulli she will keep to it! but aniwaes i doubt it. haha ! she cant even remember her blog add ! gosh! okie pple, go show her some love ! her link is available at the exit. heex. rite. nitex pple ! hope u'll have a good weekend !
"Joce's laughing in da bus alone. she must be crazy !"

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:36 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006

HELLO. watsup peeps? im doin ok! forget abt the previous post. haha. im so over it ald. gosh. watever. lot's of things in my mind now. exam [june], werk [p.h], bangkok trip [sept], attachment [sept], pengeran trip [june], money [which im so short of!], my new spects [collectin' it this weds!!], csr course [happens onli every 4 mths!] and lastly, thinking of him. but actualli the main prob is actualli money. i dun wanna ask my parents for it. they werk so hard. i just cant. feel lyke gettin' a better pay job. cant stand werking in p.h ald. it suck ! do you noe why? let me tell u stoopid, fucking customers out there...! u think u're some big fuck in this world isit? c'mon lar u stoopid low-life pple.! i noe ya'll just wanna feel superior rite? coz in the whole of s'pore u're just a piece of shit. try to act big oni. where? pizza hut! great! woo! all hail you! tell me why s'pore's service is so bad? becoz of you pple ! hei. we're humans too! assholes ! gosh get a life ! there's this one accident tat i forgotten tat a customer wanted cl3 for their pizza, it was quite busy tat time. short of staff. onli 2 service staff! so it just slip from my mind. ended up, tat bitch complaint n want an explaination [watever!] i just went to thier table, i said sorry. i totally forgot.[ in a nice enough way] she reply. ouh u forgot. can i tell you tat i forgot to pay the bill? i was like?? [wtf sia this women want!] i just kept quiet. another bitch add in. i cant accept i forgot. it's an excused. i want an explaination. i cant accept it becoz i'm oso in the service line. mebbe u could take some time to think abt the explanation & come back to me. i said. ok. n walk off. in my mind, i tot, is she like wat? my teacher or sumthin trying to test me? gosh. eff-off bitch. went to the kitchen, talk to yun. she gave me advice. i went out again. i said wat i had to say, again i was thrash out. this time, she wanted the manager. eff you lar bitch! poor karen hav to tolerate the crapp cuming out of their mouth. it was 8:45 my shift end at 9:00. 15 mins to go. i stood on my spot, doing nuthin, ignoring customers. my in my mind, i was fuming with anger! DONT TELL ME TAT YOUR OSO IN THE SERVICE LINE! COZ I DUN GIVE A FUCK! EVEN IF U'RE IN THE SERVICE LINE, U SHUD THINK, HOWS THE CONDITION LIKE IN THE RESTAURANT ISIT BUSY?? LIKE I SAID, WE'RE OSO HUMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE'RE TRYING OUR BEST TO SERVE YOU HUNGRY FAT ARSES! DUN TELL ME TAT U DONT FACE THIS KIND OF THING WHILE WERKING?? U'RE IN THE SERVICE LINE OSO RITE?!?!?! MEBBE YOU WERE GIVEN THIS KIND OF TREATMENT FROM A CUSTOMER OSO AND TAT U JUST WANTED TO GET REVENGE. GOSH. IF YOU HATE THE CUSTOMER SO MUCH, U SHUD DO THE OPPOSITE ! BUT NOW, U'RE NO BETTA TAT THEM.! GOSH! IM SO EFFING MAD LAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! U'RE SO SELF-CENTERED!! we promise a discount, we gave another pizza WITH THE CHEESY LAVA CRUST. and u still hav the cheek to say. I DUN WANT TO PAY FOR THIS KIND OF SERVICE! u're such a stoopid pathetic s'porean who owies wants things for free! if u dun have the money just say so. we could use some help in washing all the smelly, disgusting plates inside the kitchen which is continously piling up!! becoz of you pple! pple who are reading this, keep this in your mind! if you receive bad service, pls put urself in tat server shoes!! get it!! im still so MAD!!!!

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:33 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

hei ya'll. how you guys doin? hope you guys are great. well fer me. my heart was broken into a million pieces just now. i was so happy earlier in the day. had a wonderful time shopping in IMM with homies Irna & Nicholas. later in the evening, went swimming with bestie Joey. hearts her alot. had fun. me totally clueless of the tragedy tat i had to face. was in a fairly good mood. went down to the basement of causeway point. confused on where i wish to go. value dollar? macD? cold storage? this ugly, fat, stoopid head of mine, turned to the direction where i shouldnt turn. with tat, tragedy strikes me. it's like an arrow shot rite thru my fragile heart. broken into pieces instantly. i recalled tat my mind was going hay wire! qns popped everywhere in my mind. i couldnt think straight. told Bestie to walk slower. so that my beautiful tragedy could take his grand walk. there he goes. with a lucky gerl who held him tight in her arms. they look so lovely together. whereas, i could only dream. hold back my tears. din wanna cry in public & oso infront of Bestie. hold it as hard as possible. tat point of time, i just wanna go home. bestie understood. so we went home. took the bus. still holding on so hard. alighted, there i go, bursting into tears. feeling dissapointed... sad... angry... hopeless... just emotions...
"teddy bear"

truly,madly,deeply_'
1:55 PM

yo...! peeps. im in skewl now. iti lesseon. wat? iti who? haha. everyone is like doin their own stuff....! we're talking abt the drama "DIA". haha. tat's a FUCKING KICKASS SHOW MAN!!! yea. I LURVE *****!!! agh!! i hate this. friggin shit. ouh. my thumb got infection. aww. poor thumb. i went to marsiling polyclinic yesterday. the doc just gave anti-biotics. gosh. teacher nagging ald. gtg.

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:56 AM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

yo peeps... looooooooooooooooong time no see. will be updating more soon. since i did the blog ald. yea. tat's all. ta !

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:40 PM