i want to be the habit that you crave;

Friday, August 25, 2006

hello. im in skewl rite now. i think its the onli time i could blog in. when im in skewl. yea. haiz. been werking alot lately. came to skewl late today. dang. was too tired. i did wash yest. i hate it lahh. nvm. kept telling myself tat i need the money. bangkok is just ard the corner! i reallie want to enjoy myself. b4 working life get its toll on me. meaning, after bangkok, i'll be having my attachment. and its abt time tat i save some money !!! puh-lease. and i promise myself tat when i get my pay for my attachment, i will give some to my parents and pay up my debts! gee. another thing, puasa month is also coming. uh-huh. i cant wait till nxt year. im just excited to see how my life will turn out. come to think abt it, this year is a glorious year. co this is the year tat i actuallie did somthing abt my life ! if not, i couldn't be bother. like seriously. yea. i have this work fren tat i reallie want to help as a fren. haiz. but im sure if i actuallie talk to him or sumthin, he wont listen. i mean... who the hell am i?!? just a work fren. but.... haiz. i'd reallie dunnoe. okok. i'll stop here for now. so long pple.

truly,madly,deeply_'
5:47 AM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

hello. gud morning my friends. im currently in sch. having reservation and ticketing lesson. yest i had to werk till closing. coz reallie short of staff !! my managerA was like, "help me lah! help me! if you dont help me i cry ah !!" i was there laughing at her. nyah ! i said, "you cry 1st then i help you." meanie!! so i helped. gee. the noobs all went home at 9. tat's why i need to help in closing. nvm. it was fun tho. there's fahmy. hehek! we keep fighting. it was fun. we took pixies. will post it later. managerA was kind enough to make us each a reg pizza to bring home !! wee !! and 1 cheesy bite pizza for all to eat. but there's extra. so i brought it home too ! kekeke. yumm. u noe wat? we are so short of staff till managerA was doin pizza, managerB has to close the bar. while me & fahmy did the front of house closing. yea. fahmy still wont stop teasing me bein 2gether with taufik!!! geee !!! grrr !!! i will find a way to get my revenge on him !! aniwaes, im fasting today. [did i spell it rite?] gee. im hungry !! *guurlncjhcfbdksjhvcklj* sorry. tat was my tummy! nyah ! ouh ya! ouh ya! the manager look like desperate housewife with the apron!! haha!! so i called managerB old maid !! hope i get to see tat someone... hehe. ok. bye bye !

truly,madly,deeply_'
1:09 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

my life is so friggin' boring. boring ! boring ! boring ! boring ! boring ! okok. my malay so suck. okie. suddenly i got busy. nvm. continue later. den then. so long

truly,madly,deeply_'
8:46 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

salam sejahtera semue. saya akan cube untuk tulis ini post dalam bahasa melayu. sesiapa yang tak boleh angkat, jangan angkat. semalam saya mula berkerja selepas brapa lama tak kerja. saya amat kekok. baru mula kerja sudah lagi sikit nak jatuhkan pinggan. bagus. nasib saya dapat kontrol pinggan itu. kalau tidak, nanti pinggan itu akan pecah atas kepala pelanggan itu. nanti bocor kepala dia ! saya tidak punya wang untuk tanggung. saya mengaku bahawa saya amat rindun berkerja di situ. saya rindu kwn-kwn saya di situ. mereka kelakar, seronok dan amat belo. saya hanya dapat pulang ke rumah pada pukul dua belas lebih. badan saya sudah letih. tiba di rumah pada pukul 1. tidur pukul 2. bangun pukul 7. saya bertolak ke sekolah saya pada pukul 8. saya sampai sekolah pukul 9. cikgu saya bertanya kenapa saya lewat ke sekolah. saya berdiam sahaja. kerana mulut saya penat hendak berbual dengan sesiapa pun. selepas oit habis, saya ke kanteen dan membeli roti tuna dan telur. lalu saya ke kelas selepas nya. sekarang cikgu belum datang ke kelas. lepas tu saya ke blog saya. lalu terserempak dengan blog raidah. lau saya teringin blog di blog saya dalam bahasa melayu juga. kalau saya blog dalam bahasa english, saya boleh selesai dalam sepuluh minit. tetapi bila saya blog dalam bahasa melayu saya hanya selesai dalam satu jam. bedek ah. tiga puluh minit saja lah. saya kena fikir masak2 kerana saya sudah lupa macam mana hendak berbahasa melayu. saya cuma ingat sedikit. baik lah. saya akan berhenti sekarang. selamat.

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:25 AM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

hey ya. its my b'day today. spicy seventeen ! lol. more like sour seventeen. gee. but no doubt tat this year been the busiest year of my life ! well, anne and irna wish me happi b'day exactly at 12 midnite. hee. so swit. den when i was otw to sch, irna called me. den 1 by one wished me happy b'day. i was touch ! seriously. but they told me that they gonna sabo me. well tat didnt happen. im glad ! they bought a cakey !! chocolate cakey !! wee !! it was nice. haiz. i reallie appreciate it guys. my b'day wish was to make me thin and make my friends fat ! nyahaha. i was just kidding guys. dont worry guys ! u guys look great! my real wish is a secret. nyeh. the pic is actuallie wishes frm my friends written on the board. just gotta post it ! thanks again guys. but my bad for being late. thanks ancherle for taking a pic of it for me! yea. sch ends at 5 today. yea. i saw my crush. den i kinda like got lil' sad. ya. everyday lying on my bed just thinking makes me. scared, confused, wonder, sad, full of empty hopes tat sorta stuff. haiz. i just have to keep my priorities rite ! yea. u noe, i dont wish to carry on animore. so long.
"harpy birthday to me !"

truly,madly,deeply_'
10:55 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

hei bloggy !! nyahhaha. okok. rite now, im insecure !!! geee. okie. i got some financial difficulties rite now. esp tat bangkok trip is just around the corner. so i need to sacrifice !! and tell myself tat i need the money. so... i'll be like super tired lah. school starts at 8 ends at 5-6. den i have to go to werk. werk, will be back quite late. den the nxt day, have to wake up early for school again. i have to push myself. see if i can handle it. at the end of the day, it'd be all worth it. coz i get to spent at bangkok !!!!!! wee !!! my plan is to shop like mad !! till i drop and drop and drop !!! then back to s'pore, i cant shop animore. coz i wanna save up ald. if i happen to continue to higher nitec, den i got the chance to work a wee bit longer. till may. yup. i can be planning my future like this. but only time can tell. anything can happen anytime. and ya. after like months ! me not working at p.h, im finalli goin back. just coz i need the money lah. haiz. but not for long. coz i'm trying out on some other jobs. last resort, i will be still staying ah. gee. i hate this. why cant i be sure abt everything? everything is unsure.... time... only time will tell... so long.
"insecurities !! i hate this !!"

truly,madly,deeply_'
8:09 AM

Monday, August 14, 2006

sorry bout the deleted post. will be back with more pictures. bye.

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:49 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

postie. postie. today is da last day for de firewerks fest ! must go see !! today's fireworks is frm FRANCE babey !! hope joey could make it. i reallie reallie wanna go !! den we could get all emotional abt us not haven a boifwen... sobz.sobx. nyahahaha. boring lah. im at home now doin nutting !! geeeeeeeeeeee. wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? wat to do? huh? haiz. i slept for like 12 hr ald. i think i shud just continue sleeping den. bubye. swit dreams !

truly,madly,deeply_'
4:40 AM

Monday, August 07, 2006

hei ya !! tmr skewl. dang !! sucks lahh. esp. oit lesson. BORING!!!! shall not talk abt sch. well... saturday, me and joey and debby went out !! i miss those times..... miss debby. still the same debby. kewl. haiz. it was like us in our own world. so fun. den we bum into my cousins. bluek ! haha. den dee said, "why must we bum into em'?" watsup with tat man !? hehe. after saying our hi's and bye's, we went our separate way. back to our dream world. uh huh. den we stop by at ctp pizza hut. said hi. i admit lahh... i miss them alot !!!!!!!!!!! haiz. well, now every1 thinks tat i acuallie quited. gee..... hmmmp. saying that i quit becoz of the course. NO PPLE!!!! at the 1st place, i have not quitted ! 2ndly, not onli becoz the course was cancel tat i wasn't unhappy abt. I DIDNT GET TO GO FOR COLDPLAY CONCERT [which i heard was damn good ! dee couldn't get ove it lahh !!]. 3rdly, i was sick... but still went for the course. 4thly, "current" didnt even bother to apologise ! but added on tat i have to go to this gems course !!! damn !! wat the fuck is wrong with her !?!?!!? geeeee. i actuallie pass the concert tix to my cousin. grr !!!! i wanna cry ald. of coz im angry pple !!! do you get my point?!?!?! put urself in my shoes !!! its not as if coldplay are singapore citizens !!!!!! geee. but at the same time, sorry tat i have to m.i.a myself at werk tat week. i just couldnt look at tat bitch's face lahh. but abt the quiting thingy. im still thinking abt it. rite now, 75% of me wants to quit. 25% to stay. but watever it is, hope we still could be frens ok? u guys are reallie good frens of mine. i mean like i would not forget the fun we had. everytime i came across pictures of u guys, i will just pause. and feel like crying. the memorable was during xmas. it was reallie a blast !! thanks pple for making it memorable for me. lurve and miss you guys.

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:15 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

watsup?! watsup?! im in school now. in da lab ! weee !! having social skills and grooming lesson. so slack !!! and... and.... i just bought sumthin for my ipod shuffle !! i bought a "skin" for it. so its kinda protected. hehe. but.... actualli, my ipod was ald in terrible shape. meaning, there's scratches evrywhere !!! geee. heheh. it cost me 5.90 ! for 2 ! hmmp. wonder if its worth the money. nah. nvm. its ok ! i'm having a good hair day today !!! wee !!! in 1 week, i will have 6 BAD hair day and onli 1 pathetic good hair day !! great !!! pple... i want to stop eating fast food, chicken, eggs, fried food, those snacks... ya ! practicallie all junk food !! nyahahaha. i dunnoe why. hmmmp. coz, after eating all those food, i will feel uneasy... like... i dun feel good. it's a waste of money even. if i could stop drinking fizzy drinks, den i'm sure i could stop eating all those !! yea ! i shall take it slow ! we are left with ard 1 month b4 thailand trip !!! yea !! im so frigging excited lar ! anione who wants anything, CAN WAIT LONG-LONG !!! nyahahaha !! nah. if u want anything, max of 3 items k. hehe. oklah. the macdonalds i ate just now, is coming up. ahhh !! i hate this. okok. i'll stopped here now. da !!

truly,madly,deeply_'
4:52 AM