i want to be the habit that you crave;

Saturday, June 28, 2008

yeah! concert's tmr peeps! no. TODAY!! yippe! im fucking excited. i cant wait. gosh. its been how long since SA perform? erm. 3-4 years. its definately what we love doing. and to add to this wonderful event, im doing it with a bunch of my besties of all time. gosh love them loads. hope everything goes well. i ought to be off to bed ald. so... those going for the concert, see you guys there alrite? lets go go go!!

truly,madly,deeply_'
1:16 AM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go ?

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

How will I know...

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:27 AM

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

hello. woke up at 12pm today. so much for planning to go jogging in the morning. gosh. ifah sucks. shortly after that, i left home for smb. nothing much to say. you guys just have to really up your game. no time for NONSENSE. i was seriously just appalled. but i decided to just laugh it out. it was totally uncalled for. too dramatic. i can predict that it will infact happen again. mebbe not anytime soon. but IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN. coz all these time, all words went into deaf ears. i hope you guys will prove me wrong. yeah. that will be good.

gosh. it pains me. seeing you hurt. i want so bad to go to you and say "everything will be okay and i'm here for you." wipe away all of your tears. but no. nono. cant let myself fall deeper. fall deeper to a hole that i know where i'll be alone. im terrified at the thought of it. i wish i could simply block my emotions out. just bury it deep inside of me and never let it out. but i'm all tangled up in you. i felt like an emotional basket case again. laughing, sighing, screaming, dreading to myself. am i going mad? or just a fool in love? unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you.

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:30 PM

hokay. i've been really updating my blog often lately. ever since i got my own comp and my room settled. haha. well... what can i say abt today's paper? DIE. haha. the answer are in my head. but i couldnt get it out of my head. haiya. just prepare the money ifah. money. met raidah after my MICE paper. met her at bugis, while waiting, i also happened to be a part-time informaton counter there. gosh. people asking me directions all. walao. mebbe my face have the customer service officer face lidat. or maybe i just look approachable in other words, look "friendly". wahaha. dont puke kay. aniways i was more than happy to help. helping people is good. lol. then raidah came and we chilled at mac's till johnathan arrive. he didnt really change that much as we had expected. haha. -_- he just got taller. aniways, he's like such a sweet boy. so we had dinner and just hang-out after that talking abt band stuff. then headed home with raidah. and i sold 3 tkts today to my cousin. yippee. at least sumthing. hehe. as im typing this post out, im msging mustaqim at the same time. gosh. the joke of the day :

muz: where you want to meet tmr?
mus: i anithing.
muz: kay. i watever ahh.

3 more days to go before concert.
so exciting!

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:19 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

hey ya'll. i just finished reading my notes. tot of just clearing my thoughts here. i was a little emoish last night. now im just having some side effect. haha. got such things? i was studying a awhile yesterday but couldnt concentrate. and i ended up hitting stuff... including my head. gosh. this is so irritating. why do you have to be a part of life now and mess up my life?! yea. my life is pretty messed up. i shud be concentrating on my exams but instead, i just cant stop getting distracted so badly. my thoughts can really go so far! and i had to knock myself to stop the thoughts from killing me. while reading my notes, i may be reading... but my mind could simply drift away but IM STILL READING! like wtf lah ifah. MICE paper is at 2 today. i seriously dunnoe wat to expect today. might be meeting raidah after the paper. mebbe i can go for a little jog tonite. MEBBE. haha. well i think its refreshing jogging at night. breathing in the night air and maybe do some thinking. yea. mebbe i will go jogging.

-i shouldnt love you but i want to.

truly,madly,deeply_'
10:52 AM

Monday, June 23, 2008

hello. study for a awhile today in the morning. hehe. then head to smb for sembwinds band prac. still need to do lots of work guys. you know wat? i've decided to let it go ald lah. its not my band ald. i belong to SA. but i'll still support you guys kay! jiayou! all i can say now is "kay sara sara... watever will be will be." (without the tune!) hahha. and i got to take a picture with isaac today! weehoo! let me show you the DIFFERENCE. he had to like bend downwards coz im *ehem* short. aniways, when i showed him his sec 1 picture, he cant even reconised himself. gosh. hokay. im off to study for my exams now. enjoy the pic. lol.

before

after

truly,madly,deeply_'
9:25 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2008

hello. im back again! just wanna share with you guys a few pictures of me and my section. from Chun Leng's batch up till Isaac's batch. enjoy. i personally like the picture of me and isaac. hoho. so cute.

truly,madly,deeply_'
6:41 PM

hello. im been thinking alot lately. on what will happen to SA after the concert. hmm. to tell you the truth, i've been rather happy these pass few days. going for band practice, meeting my friends, having fun and making music. just like the old times... well, it was afterall the best days of my life. and i finally yesterday laughed till my tummy hurts. yay! horray! thanks to mustaqim. spent a few hours at sunplaza just chilling with the guys. i just like it when we can talk abt something and anything. haha. and back during band prac, i decided to take sembwinds tubist myself. and really do something. instead of PLAYING SOCCER in the store room. gosh. those dudes never learn. so i took isaac and congkak? chong kang? hahaha. jeez. they're like little puppies lah. must manja them. walao. they complaint to me abt some stuff. and i've come to a conclusion that its not their fault that they're at that state. but there's no point complaining abt the pass. so i told them that since im here and still want to help you guys, take advantage of this opportunity and gain as much knowledge as possible from me. hopefully things goes fine for them. they're my juniors man. how could i just do nuthing?

truly,madly,deeply_'
2:14 PM

Friday, June 20, 2008

hello! had a GOOD rest today. slept till like ermm. 3. hahaha. pig sia ifah. neways... stayed and help the tubist yesterday. still need lots and lots of work to do guys. firstly, you need to work together. then the rest will fall in its place slowly. haha. that helps. well... that's a start for you guys. while sitting with the tubist during their practice, i nearly fall asleep. nono. i fall asleep! for like a split second. gosh. so tired. not really tired. just that my eyes are giving in at that point of time. haha. it got so tired after looking at some hotstuff. hehe. ssshhhhh... okok. just finish watching Supernatural. DEAN is what i call a hot as hell piece of meat! haha. sick sia ifah. haha. yeah! tmr is the last band practice before the concert. so looking forward to it. i simply cant wait! ahh. now i want to go have my shower and sleep with happy dreams. so time will pass faster till tmr comes!! wee!

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:22 PM

Thursday, June 19, 2008

hello. finally a post from me ever since i got my new comp in my room. hehe. just been lazy lah. mebbe becoz i have nuthing to say before this. aniways, HRM exams yesterday is a GONNER. i can confidently say that i'm gonna fail this paper. i have to start saving up for the retake papers ald. jeez. this semester is such a... blehss. hokay. so for yesterday, after my paper, i went straight to Nanyang Girls for the concert rehearsal. but apparently someone isnt very helpful. *ehem* i ask her is the sch name SCGS. she bloody said YES. gosh. and i got lost. wasted my ezlink card money. well, i manage to find my way and made it there in one piece. then after the yaddas yaddas. head back to school and we had our reflections moment. and my section had a section talk too. it was fun lah. they are so CUTE. gosh. seriously. omg. but it was definately interesting. my juniors actually still remembers wat i said to them back then. i dont even remember myself saying that. haha. i was kinda sad that theres no bond in the section. they are like strangers to each others. esp for Dexter and Isaac. i tot they were bestfriends at a point of time. but it doesnt seem to be the case now. wat i love about my section is the bond. it has always been there. with the bond, i feel that we could overcome anything together. how can you work 2gether when there's a little conflict goin on?? and i dont think anione would want to play as good when they are unhappy rite? i will only look forward to coming for band when the mood is right. i better go shower. after that, im off back to school! im gonna help them put things together. you can do it guys. FIGHTING!!

truly,madly,deeply_'
8:15 AM