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Sunday, April 29, 2007

heya. i hate this feeling that is in me. jeez. but i cant help it. why? and its not as if i never felt like this before. i did. tons of times. the onli cure that i could think of is time. i dunnoe how long it would last. 2mths? 3mths? all i know is that i will get through it somehow. even tough my mind says that but my heart demands that. its a constant battle. me fighting against myself. sometimes i wonder shud i take risks? or let fate do its thing. i can ask pple for advice. but at the end of the day, i'll be the one making the decisions. im constantly having these thoughts in my head. to cut it short, im having mix emotions. okie. lets move on to my day. today was an o...k... day fer me. things is starting to look like its back to normal. Vijay is gonna try to help me so that i can go to the korean class. i reallie want to go! but i shall not have high hopes. remember wat i said earlier? NEVER LOOK FORWARD TO ANYTHING. yeahh. something hilarious happened today. haha. a boy got injured. he was crying his heart out ! seriously. he was sitting at B&J. his toenail came off. and it was bleeding. and there i was... with the first aid kid. walking thru the retail shop. jeez. it was so embarassing !! at the same time kinda cool. haha. u noe, actuallie at that point of time, i felt like doing the sound effect of an ambulance. i was also fighting the urge to laugh coz when i was walking, the retail staff has this like smiling/laughing kind of expression. but i cant laugh ! its a serious situation !! waa haa haa. the boy was cute! i cleaned the wound and everything... to tell ya the truth, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL I WAS DOING ! yikes ! did my stuff, then left. hurhur. didnt get a chance to take a peek at him. or rather, i was shy. jeez. aniwaes im thinking of purchasing the ballerina crocs at feathers. it cost $52 b4 discount. after discount its $41. worth it? shud i? mebbe i shud give it a try. see wether it looks good on me first. b4 purchasing. i think that's it for today. i have to get to bed soon. werking as per normal tmr. so long.

truly,madly,deeply_'
1:23 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

okie. im feeling depressed ! jeez. dunnoe why. nono. mebbe im just bored. werk was kinda fun. all the bird handlers were like cleaning up African Wetlands today. i get to see my new eye candy a hand-full of times. hurhur. so it was ard 5+ and they were all still hard at werk. Sabrina came to info and accompany me (yea rite...) since i was alone. then she said... "look at that african crane! i bet when johntan reaches info, its gonna fly out (escape)" and guess wat?! it did ! holy mother-fucking crapp!! it was so cool. instead of panicking, i was laughing. haha. of coz, all the bird handlers were like rushing out. it was fucking cool. some visitors were like freaking out. wat do ya expect?! its a damn huge bird ! and guess who caught it? hee hee. my eye candy! weehoo. that's hot. it was like whoah. "my hero..." cheh. stop dreaming lah! jeez. haha. then2. vijay told us this accident where another bird had escape. it happen some time back. this guy name Joe caught it. this is wat vijay said,"Joe carry the bird ahh. then he feel, the fella dead ald lah. joe go and cover the nose, eyes and everything. cant breathe. it died." wahaha. it was hilarious. but quite sad. haha. the bird died becoz of a stupid mistake. aniwaes, glad dat my eye candy was gentle enuf with the bird. hahaha ! okie dat's it. bye.

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:43 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

h...e...l...l...o today is a extra super duper BORING day lah can !! the weather was like whoah !! so cold... so nice... the kind of weather dat draws you to bed ! yikes. it was horrible fighting with myself all day at werk... once werk was over, i turned to a zombie. or like a teenager suffering frm depression. when i was in the train, i was just staring at one spot with my stoned-nest face... haha. so tired. i learn a lesson today. NEVER LOOK FORWARD TO ANYTHING!! you plans or hopes will just be crushed ! damn ! remember the korean class i was looking forward to... i cant go. -_- i want cry. AGRGH!!! bye.

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:51 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007

just so you know.... i've changed my blog skin. nice? hee. i love this song. this song is for you VP. damn the lyrics is so true... i shouldn't love you but i want to. hmm. shall carry on with wat i want to say... i'll be enrolled for korean classes this coming may. which i'm reallie excited abt ! but... the thing is, i dunnoe who else frm operations who is going as well. otherwise, i'll be going together with the retail staff... yikes ! it'd be so akward lah can! omg. vp's confirmed going. wat if... the retail staff noes dat i got a thing for him. jeez. chaos ! i will just go out running frm the room or i'll just be -STONED-. today this particular gerl frm retail kept looking at me. which is kinda weird. like as if i did something horrible lidat... i must say, she looks fierce. it scare the living crapp out of me. lunch was crappiest today. bluek ! butbut... i ate some of Sumithra's fries... yummy. ^_^ thanks Sumi!! ended werk today at 4 instead of my usual 6. NOO!! i want more money !! boo !! mum fetched me frm werk. yippee. Faiz got a free ride home too. 1 thing i realised is dat we reached wlds quite fast through the expressway. cool. it made me even more eager to save up and get license. even my auntie was couraging me. hurhur. mum was like horrified hearing that coming out of my auntie's mouth. too late Ma. i'm more den eager now... aniwaes, i have a date tmr with Ernie, my sista ! we're going to da zoo and catching a movie after dat... best part is, we're doing all dat for free! yippe! can't wait. i'll end here for now. till then, so long...

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:52 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

o...k... i feel like crapp. jeez. something happen at werk. and its reallie bothering me. this isnt suppose to happen ! argh! looks can be deceiving. damn i'm so pisst ! vp, if wat im thinking turns out to be true, then 1 word for ya !! ARSEHOLE!! but still, a part of me is hoping hard dat it will turn out the other way round. but chances are slim. no point thinking abt it. ok. nxt thing dat i would like to share is that, Faiz got a job in JBP. wee. i got a fren to go to werk with. he'll be starting this coming sunday. at least with faiz werking at BP, it will keep my mind off that arsehole. i will be meeting faiz later in the afternoon for some exercise! which i haven been doing for ages !!! wahaha. ok. so long.

truly,madly,deeply_'
3:10 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

watsup pple? heez. finallie today i had my off !! after 7 days of werking w/o off.... actuallie today's the day where they're reallie short-handed. but neither vijay or whoever ask me if i wanna werk.... mebbe they think i nid rest... hehe. but the fact is, i reallie dont mind werking. esp if he's werking ! i miss him lah can. a bunch of things happen during the weekends. im rather happy abt it. yeahh. hopefully more to come. i must make an effort tho... looking forward to werk tmr. hehe. my dear senior just msged me... she told me dat Vainpot walk pass info counter alot today. damn. i missed it !! nvm. its okie. not fated. wat to do. hurhur. but there's still tmr... yeah !! cant wait. i highlighted my hair red today. fuhh... lucky my mum's reaction wasnt dat bad. but the funny thing is dat the colour doesnt suit the hairstyle. must go and change my hairdo. hmmm. nxt off day mebbe. ehh... but no money ald lah. jeez. not sure wat else to talk abt. ok bye.

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:02 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

hello. just got home from werk... and i just feel like sharing my thoughts. here it goes... tmr's my off day... but instead i ask if i can werk. haha. cheeky lah. got off dowan. aniwaes i'll be at home rotting onli. dowan lah. i want to keep myself going. don't wanna slack off... and become the lazy person i used to be. nono. all i can say abt werk is dat, im gonna be rich ! waa haa haa haa !! i'll be werking 7 days without off ! and werking all the way frm 9am till 6pm. wee ! ifah's nuts. ouh ya ! i saw Mr Singh today ! he came to BP with his tour-group. hurhur. i wanted to approach him... but... nah. haha. in case your wondering who's he, he's my tour-guiding module so called trainer. last year. haha. okie. today i found out a bunch of new stuff abt vainpot. haha. he's a super super super duper duper duper shy guy. jeez. which i find it sooo weird. coz... he's a damn good looking guy. but shy??? haha. hmm. kinda cute tho. wahaha. he's on attachment at JBP. i wonder wat will happen to me once he's not werking there... hmm. coz JBP ahh... dont have much cute good looking guys lah. so boring noe.... haha. haiya. all uncle uncle auntie auntie wan... haha. aniwaes, my seniors were like teaching me how to like approach him and all. hehe. it was hilarious lah can. after all the talking, i was too scared/shy/cowardly to go up to him and start a conversation. lol. okie. i guess dats it... so long.

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:22 AM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

hello. let me just squeeze in a post b4 i go to my fantasy world. u noe wat ?!!? im happy lah can. i lurve werk !! so fun! today little buddha came to birdpark ! he so cute can. haha. seriously cute ! he's a bloody 3 yr old boy but has like paparazzi ard him all the time lah ! omg. even when he's here for a vacation. eventuallie many pple were trying to touch, take pictures... those stuff of little buddha. it was hilarious lah can. well, i took a pic of him. nono. actuallie i took a pic of him frm a pic dat he took with the parrots. haha. and he actuallie wrote something on the guess book... and its a friggin' circle ! hahah. SO CUTE !! my manager actuallie order us to leminate it ! omfg. hahah. well... i have the pen dat he used... anione wants it? wahahaha. i'll sell it for... hmm.... starting bid is $123456!! ha ha ha ! it was definately the highlight of the day. but... it was bored and sad at the same time coz... vainpot hasnt been werking for the past 3 days.... BOOO!! he betta be werking tmr !! or... i'll cabot frm werk and go home. haha. nono. money ifah... money. i lurve ben & jerry's milkshake can? can?!? haha. i got staff discount !! bluek ! haha. 35% sumore noe.... tee hee hee.yumyum. andand. for those who wannts to apply for BP. so sorry i cant help you guys ald lah. they called up a bunch of peeps today... not sure if they got it... and apparently my supervisor said they wont be calling anymore in... i tried. so sorry ya. unless if there's like pple quitting or sacked ! there mite be a chance. okie. bye.

truly,madly,deeply_'
1:21 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

hello. just came back frm jurong point. hehe. omg... i spent soo much money today !! bought this bought that. haiyo. bye bye money ! no more spending... save money lah ifah... aniwaes, i bought myself princess hours OST. i like !! nice2 !! weeee... hee hee. i went to catch JBP show at 4. the birds of prey show. nice. with joey. thanks to Vijay for allowing joey to come in free too. well... but i have to leave out dee, zura and my mum. sorry !! i reallie feel veryy bad lah hokay. nxt time lah... when i werk there longer. okie. vainpot wasnt werking just now... soo didnt get to see him... bluek. haha. nvm its okie. i'll be werking tmr all the way till thurs. friday my off. but i want to werk more. i see wat i can do tmr. ta !

truly,madly,deeply_'
12:51 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

ola ! finally i got a chance to update my blog. actuallie i'm just lazy lahh. tired noe. werk everyday. but i lioke ! I LOVE MY JOB!! esp when vainpot is werking. ahh. he talked to me today. wee hee hee ! after dat i got high. and he made me look like a fool, smiling to myself. haha. i so happy lah can. he got nice hair. hurhur. okay enuf. well... i've been doing closing all the way this week. phew... tired, but guess wat motivates me? erm... 15% vainpot and 85% MONEY!! haha !!! i wanna save for somthing i've been planing to do. nono. its not marriage ! hahah. secret. shhh. my school posting is not doing so good. i cant seem to get a spot in bishan ite. shall i appeal again? 50% of me wants to continue studying. the other 50% wants to werk. haiz. the problem is, i couldn't even get into a school. but its okie. i shall keep trying. im still grateful for wat i have right now tho... doing well at werk... i get to be close to nature as well ! learn new stuff frm pple. pple tend to just live life but never reallie take the time to appreciate nature... well... pple at BP/Zoo/Night Safari i salute you for the passion, dedication and love for the little or even big creatures around us. you're a life saver ! im feeling so inspired now. haha. i hope i can be 1 of them one day. let's just see how it goes.

truly,madly,deeply_'
11:21 AM